yeah that was short lived

have you ever felt like you have completely and utterly noone? like you can pick up the phone when your screaming in tears and not have a clue in the world who to call?

in the last two days my life has come crumbling

IF ONLY THE FUCKING WORLD KNEW WHAT CRUMBLING FUCKING WAS

I HATE EVERY FUCKING KID IN THE WHOLE WORLD WHO HAS EVER FUCKING CRIED OR COMPLAINED ABOUT THEIR PERFECT FUCKING LIVES

i cant do this. you dont undestand. everything is.. gone

i talked to kirsty today coz shes out of timbertop early coz she cant handle it. she said that scarlett said (who used to go to mggs) that mggs is so bitchy and mean and that i would probably hate it. scarlett was in the most popular group at mggs. if she thought it was bitchy, how the fuck am i going to handle it?

i dont want to fucking go. but dads told me that he spoke to the fucing registrar and that all signs are go.

im not fucking going.

its results arent THAT fucking good. only 10% of thier VCE (HSC equivilent) students for 99% or higher.

i want to go to abbotsleigh.

or another melbourne school. because mum says that by going to a melbourne school i will have connections in both cities for when im older and need them. which is a fair point. right now i have to think about my future, not what i need short term.

i need a mid sized all girls boarding school with outstanding results. that is the type of school i know i need, through trial and error.

i hATE this. i hate that my entire future is in jeopardy. i hate this. im already enrolled at mggs. what do i do?

i cant go there. icant.

my future relys on this school. i need my 99%s to get what i want without geelong grammar.

fuck fuck fuck fuck balls.