a year of growing up. a year of firsts. 2010, i wont forget you.

In generally chronilogical order

first cigarette
first boarding school
first proper hike
first proper run
first older guy
first finger
first treasured early morning
first fortnight without a mirror
first love
first hand
first lick
first webcam sex
first drunken experience
first bringing my mum to a boyfriends house
first regret first expulsion
first mourning
first grief
first temporary schooling
first job
first pay
first breakup that mattered
first big lesson.

good god 2010, youre not even over yet.

but you have been one massive lesson, and a very harsh one at that.

i have learned more about life than any other year, and more about myself as well.

the night before i went to timbertop i was crying and thought to myself "one day ill look back and laugh on this moment"

because i knew i would get over it and that everything would turn out fine.

and i did. i looked back and absoloutely pissed myself, because i loved timbertop so much that it was an absoloute joke to even shed a tear about its capabilities.

and now, ill think it again, in a desperate hope that the same will follow through.

one day ill look back and laugh